Thankful doesn’t really cover it.
Thanksgiving last year was incredibly sweet and hopeful, but wow was it heavy. Our lives were in a major limbo as we waited on surgery, test results, and what the future held. But 365 days later everything feels new, fresh, and bright. Both Ryan and I have spent a good portion of the last 4 weeks saying, “Can you believe this is real? We made it to Thanksgiving!”
Thanksgiving has felt like a marker, a milestone, and a big deal for us. And I’m so glad it’s here.
Ryan got the official all-clear from his Oncologist on October 24th – a little over a month ago. We’ve been scanning and re-scanning the past 8 months due to a few spots the doctor wanted to keep an eye on. So truthfully we’ve been holding our breath for what has felt like a very long time.
When we walked into the office and the doctor said “Your scans came back completely and utterly clear. Congratulations Ryan, you are cancer free!” We had become used to waiting, so the news took us a little by surprise, even though it was exactly what we had been praying for. I kept having the doctor repeat the words over and over, because it didn’t feel real and I wanted to MAKE SURE we heard him correctly. I’m happy to report it is finally starting to sink in for both of us.
I remember vividly the very first day of our treatment. We were checking in for chemo as a woman was checking out. The receptionist said to her, “Congratulations, we will see you in 6 months!” The other woman, in tears, graciously and simply said “thank you.” I’ve held onto that moment, hoping and wishing we too would hear those words some day, knowing full well that hearing them is a gift. So when we stood there on October 24th and the receptionist said to us “Congratulations, we will see you in 6 months“, time stopped. I refused to miss that moment and took in every syllable of those 8 words. So yeah, thankful doesn’t really cover it.
Today, as we watch the parade, buzz around the kitchen for hours on end, stuff our faces with pumpkin pie, and drink wine under the twinkle lights with our nearest and dearest, I will relish in every single second of it. The dish washing, the leftover packing, the tired feet from cooking all day.
ALL OF IT.
Because this season is such a beautiful season, just like the last, but with a little more gratefulness sprinkled on top. Life is beautiful and hopeful even during the really hard stuff, and regardless of the season we are in I don’t want to miss out on a single second, because if there is one thing I’ve learned this past year, it’s that this life is truly a gift.
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1
Happy Thanksgiving, friends.
Catch up on our cancer journey here.